Isn’t this what motherhood looks like from the inside of our heads before we actually become mothers? Just doing whatever we used to do, except there are kids o the couch watching cartoon, quietly. Little did we know. The cartoon moments are rare and precious. Some moms can, but I can’t breathe anymore as deeply as I used to. I can’t be away for too long. I can’t be away at all. I wake up at least 3 times every night, even though they don’t do that anymore. I sacrifice my showers, I didn’t put on my make up or had my nails done for over a year. It’s a hard thing, I’ll tell you. Yet, some women make it look so easy. I admire them.
Soon I’ll have two little girls around the house, no longer two babies. I still have to decide if I’m actually happy about that and who is the person I’ve become after them.
It aint easy, I’ll tell you