Riley asked to hear a story about Brazil. I’m not sure this is a story, but it’s a start…
Countless nights, we would be up at 3a.m. and would all decide to get together so the boys would go kayaking on this lake, or just talk…. maybe fish. I rarely ever made it home before the sun was out. I had no reason, really.
Some other times we’d drive to this very spot just to make fun of the couples who apparently had no private place to go and be “intimate”. You could totally tell what was going on on those shaky and foggy cars.
Now that I think about it, most of the nights, I was the only girl in the group. No wonder today, I’m the only woman in the office. I’ve been around the guys so much I sometimes forget I am, technically, not really one of them.
My best memories are at night. Me and my friends are all night owls, I’d say.
While all the surfers and the pretty girls would spend the day at the beach, we’d reach it in the middle of the night and watch the sunrise above the rocks. Just a bunch of nerds.
Except for Serginho, the life-guard. Kindest person you’ll meet in this lifetime.
To this day I am not sure if I was part of the group or if I just tagged along with them randomly from time to time. I know Penna didn’t even like me at all at first, but he was just so unique and cool and admired by the whole group that I wanted to write a book about it. He is the reason why I have a hard time acknowledging that I was as much a part of their lives as they were of mine, since they are the coolest people I have ever met.
This kind of shit makes me miss the old days and it makes me sad that, no matter what I do, I don’t get to go home.
The reason why I can’t go home, even to visit, is because “home” is not there anymore.
The greatest people I’ve ever met, the best group of friends anyone could ask for, they are not down the street like they used to be.
We have all grown up and moved away. All of us. We have become a little buzz on each other’s phones… and boy, how happy that little buzz makes me.
Sometimes I get a little heart from Leandro… ’cause there’s nothing left to say. We have been talking for over 20 years and could talk for a billion more. I’ll tell you a secret, I miss him every day.
Sometimes Guilherme will send me a song, like he did today and make my day. He’ll make my day ’cause his voice feels like home wherever I am. We have been friends since I was 9 years old. He’s the soundtrack of my life. Whenever I feel alone or scared, I look for his voice again and I feel like he’s there, growing, changing, becoming a parent and facing the world with me. And again, I am ready for anything.
There is a chance I’ll see Serginho again. A good chance. A very good chance! He’s the kindest soul I’ve ever met. He’s made me a better person just by being who he is.
And then, there’s Diego. He’s the little piece of me that’s missing right now. I am having a hard time enjoying all these great things without him.
I wish they’d all live down the street again one day…
Ok… but there’s still a lot to go, and this story is quite short. So, I’m gonna show you some pictures now.
This is what the beach looks like during the day, Riley:
Yes, you can actually drive your car there, which I notice most people find very weird. I was never your beach-girl, but yes, I could walk there for 4 or 5 hours. I’d normally stop because whoever was with me couldn’t keep up. I was a different person. I absolutely miss that person and I wish my girls could play on this sand some day, but the news we get from there are scarier and scarier every day.
And this, Riley, is a ship. It got stuck there (I’m sure there’s a term for this) in the 70’s I think.
This is what the ship looks like today:
This is a little bit of home. I have more stories to tell. Too bad it’s such a different place now…
Good night, Riley.